I had SUCH a weird dream last night. I'm not sure I believe in dream analysis, but I thought I'd throw this one out there to see what people can make of it!
I dreamed that I was at some kind of get together with old high school friends (I'm almost 30, so some of the people there were people I haven't seen in years). Somehow or another, I started removing all my insides - my lungs, my pancreas, my bladder, my heart, etc. I set my heart on the counter and said to one of my old best friends, "Look, it's still beating!" and we both marveled at how interesting it was to see my heart beating, outside of my body. I remember feeling mildly guilty that I hadn't thought to call a hospital before removing my innards to see if any of them might be useful for transplants. Then I turned to another friend and said, "How long will I live without my heart?" And she rolled her eyes and said in a "you idiot" tone of voice, "About two minutes." Then I became aware that my skin was getting cold and clammy, and my body was suddenly very weak, and I frantically grabbed at the phone to try to call family to say goodbye, but I realized that I wasn't going to make it. I felt panic and sadness and relief at the same time. Everything began to go black and that's when I woke up.
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Dreams should never be taken literally. I am guessing you think you've changed since high school, and you wanted to show some of them how much. Death usually means a new beginning, are you embarking on a new career or hobby, getting married or divorced, or are there some big changes to your life recently? Whatever decision you are making is probably a good one, since you got over the guilt and anxiety, and at the end feel relieved.
I can go further with it, I am usually pretty good at interpreting dreams.
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Wow, Velvet, that was something! A major change has happened lately in my life- a very big recent move - to a new country (or, I should say, a return to my old country - my husband and I are back in the US) and a new job. I'm impressed! I'm not so sure it was the right decision, but I hope it is, because I'm feeling major anxiety about it all. Go on, if you like!
As for you two, Elexina and aminator, well, I'm slightly less impressed.
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It appears that there was a type of autopsy before death so that the process of first death then autopsy was reversed. It just sounds to me as though you are comfortable with returning to a familiar environment. Don't worry!
Sarai-I seem to recall that you were thinking of starting a family soon. That could be what "pulling your guts out" means. Producing a part of yourself, and then imagining you'll lose your life to the baby. Well, it's sort of like that, you put your own's life's goals on the back burner. And you think that your friends and family may not see you as a good mother, or that you cannot do it alone. Once you start down the road of motherhood, you find out it's not the trauma that everyone told you it would be. If you intend to have kids, do it soon and don't wait for a better time. Times will always be hard, and other people will doubt you, and you'll even doubt yourself. But that's the nature of life.
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