im close to ending it all. but i dont want to hurt my family and friends, what do i do?
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10-07-02, 01:48 PM
puppyblues
You are making a decision that will effect the rest of your life, as well as others.
I have had friends do this, and seen what their family and friends go through. Honey, it only makes you dead. Your family will have to go on and live a tortured life. You don't want to do that, do you?
Please talk to someone first, anyone. Just get some help.
You didn't exactly say why you are feeling this way, but teenagers (and lots of adults) get these feelings. They are natural. But if you try to act on them, you could have some serious depression going on.
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, get some help, talk to someone.
Things are not always as bad as they seem after you have had a day or two to think about it.
There are many here for you. Please use us anytime. Puppyblues

[This message was edited by KingKrimson on 10-07-02 at 01:54 PM.]

10-07-02, 01:54 PM
K.K.
If you, a family member or a friend are considering suicide call - 1 800 SUICIDE - for help!

10-07-02, 03:21 PM
PerfectPeach
I know exactly how you're feeling frown
This isn't a very fun feeling at all.
You know that you have many reasons to live, but you start contemplating whether its worth it... and you say to yourself "life isn't worth it"

But the fact of life is that, your dont know what lies ahead of you. You could be days...hours away from the ultimate bliss. Though the pain you are dealing with now is so bad that it seems its not worth it, but in the end it is.

I am a suicidal teen. But my ultimate passion is
1.) having a family
2.) writing a book

That is what I am going to live for. The day I have a family will be the happiest day of my life and though I at times I feel so much pain, I will look back and say, "it was worth it if I can be THIS happy."

10-08-02, 09:01 AM
puppyblues
Please post again. I'd love to know how you are doing. Pup

10-08-02, 10:43 AM
Texan-In-Exile
I had a dysfunctional home life -
But there was no such thing as "intervention" back then.

Nearly 25 years of depression later, I went to a therapist who asked me why I thought I hadn't killed myself. I had no answer.

I thought about it over the next few days.
Then I realized -
I didn't want to stop LIVING -
I wanted to stop HURTING!

GET HELP!
If not your parents, a school counselor, or even the Suicide Hotline!
There are ways to work through the pain, the problems.

Think of the things that you do like.
You're gonna miss them when you're not here! (Your spirit will!)
You're gonna leave them soon enough -
So take the time to enjoy them while you can!

Godspeed! --Mitzi

PS - I'm here for you too!

10-08-02, 12:21 PM
Pin~Jinx
the obvious answer is DON'T!!!

You yourself realise that
as you are still loved
(reason #1 to live)

there are ppl who will get hurt to lose you.

I beleive that there is NOt a Single Soul which is sent to this world without a purpose.
Fine, MAYBE you aren't shining bright or an outstanding personallity (MAYBE, and I am sure that would be just Your opinion, not of those around you)
it does not mean that you should take serious and illegal steps such as this.

Think about your family: aren't they dependant upon you_emotianally atleast.
They require your support and want you to be there for them. Live For Them!

and you know what, if you do something with the intention of pleasing some one else,
it feels GREAT. Trust Me.

Set Goals for yourself and try achieving them; or atleast try to reach for them.
Mind you, not every one is a winner; so acquiring your goals should not be the Ultimatum. Even the little steps taken to be closer to the target are achievement enough.

Do Take Care of Yourself,
Pin~Jinx

10-08-02, 12:42 PM
Beth000376
Life can be hard I know I'v been there we all have at some time or another. Only YOU can help yourself right now PopPrincess you must take the first step in this... and I know it's a hard first step but you can do it I know you can! You must be strong and reach out for help! Talk to your Mom or Dad tell them what you are feeling you may think that they will not understand but you'll never know until you try. Sometime's we (Mom's and Dad's) are not good at seeing when our child needs us we think everything is ok when it's not, we are sorry for that princess parent's make mistake's as do children we are all human. There is no problem worth your life I know you know this is true, so please give your parent's another chance reach out too them... what do you have to lose? Praying you do the right thing Beth

10-08-02, 01:15 PM
BandaiJ
I was in your position a few months ago. But my mother had wise avise. She reminded me that the teenage and high school years a a minor stepping stone in life, and that soon it will all be over and things will get better. The problem with us teens is that we live in "today", but you have a future and you can't give up. Think of all you'll be giving up-family,friends,pets,your career,children, and a lot more. Think of you'll be gaining. Nothing. Do you know what happens when you try to overdose on pills? Most of the time someone gets you to a hospital before you die. Then they use a tube and pump your stomach. Then they call you crazy. Medical people think those who try to kill themselves are carzy and should be institutionalized. And say it does work. You'll be DEAD. We like to think that God will come for us when we pass and take us off to heaven where we'll be eternally happy and carefree amongst the angels. But the harsh reality is that the only place you'll be going is in a box, in the ground. Forever. No family. No friends. No anything. Things will get better, I promise you. Good things happen when you least expect it. I know from experience. Take time to yourself, read a book, listen to a CD, write a poem or keep a journal to express your feelings. Then have fun with friends, celebrate you. Talk to your family and tell them how your feeling. Don't be afraid to talk to a therapist and to try anti depressants. They're all here to help you. Millions of people are affected by depression, so it's nothing to be ashamed of. Persevere. You'll find happiness. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. Hope I helped. BJ

10-08-02, 01:29 PM
puppyblues
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10-09-02, 12:10 AM
nursey63
Princess plese talk to us. We are here to help we are your friends. I have felt the way you are feeling right now. It is not fun. Talk to someone about it. You don't want to do anything drastic please. Your family well suffer forever from it. They will wonder why and what they did wrong and feel so bad. You don't want to do this to them. I know things are down right now but it can get better if you just talk to someone. call the 1-800-SUICIDE number and talk to someone. They can help you. Please talk to us. Talk to your family and friends please. It can't be that bad to end your precious life. Life is a gift don't try to take it away. I am a nurse and I see people dying all the time with serious illness. It is their time it is not yours. Like Pup said when you are a teen things are very emotional and difficult. It is awful but it will get better just talk to some one please. If you post and want to talk I will get a email and no to respond so please let us know how you are.
a nurse and friend who cares

10-09-02, 08:38 AM
puppyblues
I want Princess to get all the advice she can.

10-09-02, 12:13 PM
jejelale
Princess-people really care-just look at their posts. You can talk to me too. I have been to a funeral of a young suicide victim. I will never forget her laying in the casket-her parents and family-their sadness. This happened 20 years ago. Her mom and dad are still grieving. Her way out changed so many lives forever.
Please,please get help. Talk to someone you love or talk to me.I CARE!!

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