I'm a senior in high school and lately I've been having this terrible feeling of inferiority to my friends and I can't get over it. It's mainly because they do so much better in school than I do, and it just makes me feel left out in some strange way...like I'm different or something. My grades have never been as good or as consistent as theirs. In fact, I'm not even sure if they know how many points lower my GPA is from theirs but I don't want them to know because that would embarass me in front of them and they probably wouldn't look at me the same way.

My friends and I are in a student group called NHS (National Honors Society) only, I just got kicked out because my GPA dropped below the required GPA to stay in. I feel horrible, and there is absolutely no way I'd ever be able to admit to them that I got kicked out. The problem is, we have meetings for NHS and now that they will not see me at the meetings, they'll probably ask why I am not going.

How can I get over this? It's like it's constantly nagging at me and I feel so guilty because I don't want any of them to know about what's been happening with my grades. I know it's my own fault for not getting good grades like them, but should I be feeling this way all the time?

Please help.

Blue, if you were in National Honor Society, you have nothing to feel inferior about regarding your grades. If all your friends are in, it sounds to me like you have made good choices in friends, and I suspect that they have too, in you.

For someone used to high grades, having a bad semester or two is hard to take. Please don't judge yourself by a few semesters of "bad" grades. Judge yourself by who you are and who you always have been. Grades are just a part of admission to NHS. Being relatively well-rounded is another part. I seriously doubt that your admission to NHS was a mistake, and I also doubt that your friends were admitted by mistake. Have some faith in who they are. Be honest with them; you might find that some of them have the same insecurities as you. It comes with being a teen, and, unfortunately, higher intelligence often means you might tend to over-think things and be far too critical of your own faults.

I was president of my high school's NHS. I was also a star on a state championship wrestling team. I was one of the most popular guys in the school. And not a day went by that I didn't worry that I wasn't good enough, didn't belong, and that people were talking about me behind my back. It comes with being a teen.

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you have nothing to feel inferior about regarding your grades. If all your friends are in, it sounds to me like you have made good choices in friends

Being a senior in high school is a tough job, and I agree with Dorian: you have nothing to feel inferior about regarding your grades and it sounds to me like you have made good choices in friends.
If your friends are making you feel left out because they act as if they are superior to you, then that is one thing. But if they accept you for who you are, then you have nothing to worry about. The National Honors Society is a big deal and having been accepted at all says a lot about you as a person and a student. It is not a fluke that you were accepted.
But you have got to do the best that YOU can do, not the best your friends can do. There is nothing wrong with having to work a little harder. Not everyone can be the valedictorian. Some of us have to come in a little lower. If you are confident that you are doing your best, then that is all that matters.
As to the NHS, perhaps you could speak to your counselor and teachers about extra credit work you could do to get your grades up and finish the year on a high note.